Loneliness is an Angel by Sara M. (digital book reader .txt) 📕

March 1, 2011

"Where am I?," the question I ask myself every day. My name is Anna. Ever since I can remember I have been traveling. The only way I can get away is my ability to charmspeak some people into taking me with them. I hate being in one place for more than one week. Maybe it is because I've never had a stable home.

So the basis of my life is simple, when I was little my parents turned me out. None of my mom's side wanted me, and my dad's side is a giant mystery. But I think since I was like 5 years old I've never stayed in a stable home. I've lived in cars, boxes, motels, anywhere where the is a shelter. But every night I think about how other kids get the love and care from their parents while i have a box.

But eventually i move from that point and look forward to the one day that i will be free from my curse of not having a family. Life will move on and so will I. I can't be hung up on my bad days.


March 2, 2011

I had the weirdest day. It was actually good. I woke up smiling and enjoyed a morning walk. I found a little bit of change on the sidewalk. People were actually nice to me.

The weirdest part is when I met someone from my dad's side of the family. She was my cousin. Her name was Jenna and she was from New York. She looked about my age, 16. I was also wondering why is she here and alone. Her clothes looked super expensive, all white. When she walked by she looked kind of normal, yet also so familiar. But it seemed impossible that I've met her before. The weirdness began when she said my name. "Hello, Anna!," she said so cheerful like we were best friends before. But I know I haven't met her before. When she said my name my back felt a little tingle.

She said" My name is Jenna, don't you remember." She looked like my dad. I was hopeful that she could be my cousin or something, and I can stay with her in New York. I was so excited that I started giggling. But became serious soon after. She offered to let me stay with her in a hotel because she had an extra bed. She also offered to buy me new clothes. She was so nice!


March 3, 2011

Jenna was really creeping me out, but she was still nice. She bought me a whole closet full of white expensive stuff. She also got me different color clothes that I picked out, but white dominated the wardrobe. But the whole time she looked at me expectantly.

The white clothes made me feel like I was an angel. That just made it more weird. Jenna even called me Angel a few times when she meant to say Anna. It was crazy.

When she left to run a few errands, it reminded me of the first time i snuck into a motel and stole the maid's key. Flashbacks happen all the time for me. I was always by myself, I had nothing to think about besides the past.

What made this whole situation worst is that this was the same hotel that my parents left me in. I was 5 and they took me on their business trip to California. They said they had to leave to get to the meeting in the city. "We'll be back before lunch," my mom said. Before I knew it, it was dinnertime and they never came back. The staff at the hotel became my family. They helped me put up posters, search for nearby relatives, gave me food, and put me in my own room and tucked me in at night.

Now I bet your wondering why I just didn't stay with them. Because I wanted to find my parents. I thought that they wouldn't leave the city without their little girl. But they did. So I continued to live in the city. But I would always visit the hotel that took care of me for 5 years.

March 4, 2011

Jenna is being really weird. She is showing signs that she is going to leave. Either that or she is hiding something. When is she going to tell me what is happening. I'm nervous, I don't want her to leave me, she is the closest thing to family for me.

This can't be happening. I can't be alone, not again. Abandonment does not look good on me. I have to convince her not to leave me. She was the closest thing to blood-related family I've had in years.

I won't let her leave no matter what it takes. But I won't do it in a creepy way. I'll charmspeak her. Well that is what I'm told what that,... well whatever it is, is called. I wondered how she knows the name of it. I'll question Jenna tonight.

March 5, 2011

Wow, that is all I can say. Nothing else came out of my mouth. Jenna told me everything about what had happened to my parents. All I could do is stare at her. I couldn't believe her, what she said didn't make any sense. I guess there were always angel but not that they actually lived on the earth.

Okay, let's rewind so I can tell you what happened. So When Jenna came back she said it was time that I knew what had happened, also what I am. I thought she was crazy when she suggested that I might be something than a human being. But then she said, " Your right it does sound crazy, especially if your parents didn't train you to be good..." she started to ramble on and on until I had to tell her to stop. " STOP, Jenna I get it, you can stop talking to yourself. Get on with what you were gonna tell me,"I said. " Okay don't need to be yelling," said Jenna. My new-found cousin started to be a new-found pain. " Well what I was going to tell you was that your parents are angels..." Jenna kept talking, but that first part just stuck in my mind. I couldn't let it go. That explains why I always did the right thing, I never got in trouble, and they always had that soft, persuasive tones always saying do the right stuff. I had a feeling that I should be listening to Jenna but I just couldn't. It was probably the story of what happened my parents.

I tried to concentrate as hard as I could on what Jenna said. The story was probably the answer to all my questions about my parents. I was about to cry harder than I have ever had before. I hated crying, showed weakness. But I couldn't help it. Knowing my parents were angels just... I can't describe it. I apologized to Jenna about my crying.

She re-told the story to me again:

When my parents left me to go on the business trip, they were meeting the Council of Angels. It turns out that they didn't do good the whole time, although they thought it was. See my parents thought the were doing the right thing but it turns out that it ended really badly. Jenna didn't know any details. All she said that my parents were banished to become regular humans. But I their daughter was cursed with bad luck, don't even think that luck is a big mumbo-jumbo, i relaized that is why my life is so messed-up. They were forced to leave me.

March 6, 2011

Today was the day that made Jenna my official guardian(angel, get it, because she is an angel, never mind). Turns out she can make people look at her the way she wants them to see her, like a master of disguise. I guess magical powers is part of the whole being an angel. She told me that she is going to make my life as normal as it can be. Where have I heard that before? Oh, yeah! On almost all those TV shows that says they are going to be normal but then it won't be. Like they might get attack by monsters.

Well who can tell the future( maybe that is a super power for angels). I don't know, but it seems tomorrow will be my first day at Jonas Kings High School. But I think that this whole being normal thing won't work because, recently I was born to have bad luck. I mean, seriously, who makes a bad luck child go to school with a bunch of normal people. ISN'T THAT INSANE!.

Jenna told me the rest of the story today. It seems that a few years later, my parents went missing. YOu know that feeling that super heros get when they her a loved one in trouble and then they rescue them. I had the same feeling, but Jenna told me I wasn't trained enough to go where they were taken. To me it seems that Jenna knows where they are. I intend to find out.

March 7, 2011

Gone, everything I was is now gone. Jenna has transformed me into a person that I don't recognize. She says angels hide in common school grounds as anything. If they recognize me then they will eliminate me as quickly as possible, but in a way I won't recognize. I love her but she always has something that makes her overprotective and paranoid.

So today was my first day ever as a school kid. I wasn't normal, considering a diva dressed me. Speaking of the diva she enrolled her self and made her self a double so one could play the parent. Wow, I think i found Jenna's power, she is a person of illusion, she can make things seem the way she wants them to and make things appear. I wonder if I can do anything beside charmspeak.

Besides all that I got my first friend today her name is Reece. She is so much fun. So there is this mean girl named Roxy and Reece got back at her for whatever she did to Reece. Anyway it was hilarious, somewhat, so Roxy always has her mid-day re-glossing or something like that. Reece got a small marker and fashioned it as a lip gloss bottle thingy. So when Roxy put her lip gloss, she ended up with a black Shapie moustache for the rest of the day.