Crush: A Tale Of Silent Love and Admiration by Ritesh Prasad (e manga reader txt) 📕

Crush is one of the most beautiful emotion, we all have been familiar and have experience at some stage of our life. We all have crush on someone at some point of our life.

Crush is a beautiful story which remains unfold forever.  A chase which never ends but still we all love it. A stranger who knocks at the door of your heart silently and before you realize they become permanent resident.  Your adrenaline level rises and your eyes spark whenever you see your crush. Beauty about having a crush is that the person who rules your heart doesn't even have slight clue about this. The same person can make your day when she/he is around, and the same person can ruin your day if you cannot see them. And believe me all this happens for a person who is not even a part of your real life. That's the charisma of crush.

Why we have crush on someone? Well…. that’s difficult to answer to be honest, It is a complex mechanism and though there are several theories and psychological reason behind it, but I am not going into those details. Whatever may the research say, but one of the strong reasons is crush happens when you cross path with someone who share the same positive vibes as you. Somewhere i have read that it has also something to do with sensory stimulation of the olfactory membrane, subconsciously our body release odour to find the potential mate which has the traits and genetic compatibility, when our body identifies that potential partner, it release a signal which we can also termed as crush. Henceforth, crush is just not about eyes and touch but chemical amalgamation as well. Scientifically when we have crush on someone a chemical known as dopamine is released in our body which give us the most delightful human experience and hits the brain on the point known as “Pleasure Centre”. When this reaction happens in our body, we experience pure bliss and ecstasy.

Though you may get attracted to many people throughout your life, crush does not happen every now and then. Attraction is more related with appearance and can be more frequent, but crush is more about the vibes and biological reactions that’s why most of our crush encounter happens during the puberty period. Crush mostly strikes at the teenager age and there are no set of rules to have crush on anyone, it’s purely the instinct game. You can have crush on any person you know or even with a stranger of any age. Some have crush on their friend, some on friend's girlfriend, some have crush on teacher, your batch mates, or anyone from your neighborhood or with a unknown traveler whom you met while on your bus or train journey. It doesn't matter if you are going to see that person again or not, but that moment is vividly capture in your heart forever. Though you move on after that, but the image remains with you forever, if not, then it’s not crush but something else. Research says less than 0.1% of crush turns into relationship and if this happens then what we called is "Made for each other”, this kind of relationship is a true blessing.

So that was a brief introduction on crush and now let’s scroll down further to witness a heart touching journey through Rishabh's story.

It was the month of June, the season of rain; Dehradun is one of the cities which receives heavy rainfall. Romance without rainfall is not complete even in Movies and Novels, kids enjoy playing football but playing football in the mud during rainy season is just awesome. Rain has great connection with our emotions...when we are in love we dance in rain, when we are happy, we enjoy rain and when we are sad, we just embrace rain and cry. Now you must be wondering why i am talking so much about "Rain". Because here in this story too rain has an important role to play. So, without waiting any further here it goes…

I wiped the cab window to look outside while getting ready to get down and it’s raining like crazy. I was on the way to submit my documents for college admission. Being the last day for submission, I was in rush, holding my bag I open the door and got down from the cab near the college gate. I saw a security guard in raincoat standing by. I came near him holding my umbrella and asked where is the admin dept, while still talking to him, I felt someone passing by, I don’t know how and why but it made me curious to turn back and see, the moment I turned, I saw a young simple girl with open long hair wearing light green petals printed salwar kurta and a somewhat matching color umbrella crossing me very closely towards the entrance gate. With one hand she was holding  the umbrella and with the other hand a blue color folder wrapped around her upper body , though her face was not clearly visible because of the umbrella but the moment she crossed me, instantly something happened, the positive vibe which I felt at the moment for few seconds was immense. She just crossed me without bothering and walked ahead towards the campus building, I was still standing there and watching her go. For few seconds I completely lost my sense, however, the security guard’s loud voice brought me back from fantasy. Quickly, I cut short my dialog with him and increase my pace and marched ahead towards the building. I was curious to see her face before she gets vanished in the campus.

As soon I enter the building, luckily, I saw her standing near the staircase, jerking and drying her wet green dupatta. She was engrossed in her own act and didn’t even notice my presence. I quietly stood on the other side and pretended to look outside. In between I frequently sneak peek her top to bottom. The battering sound of the rain outside complemented the scene beautifully and I was witnessing one of the most spectacular view. I thought couple of times, should go and start conversation with her but could not grasp the courage enough and soon she left from there. This short-lived moment for few minutes literally took my breath away, I felt eternal bliss and I was smiling without any reason. Somehow, I got my sense back and realized what I was here for. So, I rush to the admin department and completed all my admission formalities. While coming out from admin room I desperately search for her once again around the campus, but she was nowhere. I waited for some time and then finally left the campus without meeting her again.  At that tender age I could not understand what i was going through, but I felt very happy from deep inside.

Once I reached home, I was completely lost in her thoughts the flashback of the scene started revolving around my eyes. When you have crush on someone, your imagination can reach to any level. I started daydreaming about her that she will be my batchmate, we will be best of buddies, will have coffee together in the cafeteria and many more things, these thought literally made me blush but in reality, I was not even sure, who she was? whether she is a student, come for admission or she was there for something else. I literally knew nothing about her but there was a hope somewhere that i will see her again.... that’s the gut feeling you get when you have crush on someone.

Finally, the long wait was over, and a month later college started. I was very excited about my first day in college, I enter the college and desperately started looking for her  but I could not find her anywhere not in class nor in the campus, this made me sad and all the excitement and spark got vanished in jiffy. Days passed, weeks passed, we got back to normal life, made some amazing new friends, loved watching beautiful girls in our class and around campus too. Everything went back to normal but somewhere I felt something was missing and this way days kept on passing by. Then suddenly one day, an unexpected thing happened, while we were having our economics lecture in a engross atmosphere... there was knock at the door and this distracted the intense mood of the classroom.

 "Excuse me" a soft voice echoed in the classroom and broke the silence. We simultaneously turned back to see who the culprit was? And then, the magic happened. I don’t know about others but there was something special for me, the view outside sparked my eyes and my face expression changed by reflexes. I saw a familiar face in the familiar dress...same petal green salwar suit girl standing at the door. She was looking stunning.

"May i come in Sir? I am a late joinee in this batch and today is my first day". She said as she entered the class. Our eyes glued at her and our body freeze as she walked inside and sat in the front row.

My heart deep inside shouted “Oh My God" it’s her, unbelievable, I was on cloud nine. Just her presence in the classroom changed my entire mood, suddenly the dull and monotonous college life became vibrant and cheerful. This was an era when internet and emails were not popular. Smartphones, Facebook, Twitter or WhatsApp were not even invented. Connecting with people during those times was not as easy as its today, wish we were lucky too like today’s generation. But unfortunately, you were on mercy of time, you have to wait for the morning and need to be at the same place to see your crush again. College was the only place i could see my crush. I started attending classes every day. I used to reach college early and wait at the main gate to get a view of her and stealthily I followed her towards the classroom, this had become a daily affair for me. She was least aware about this nasty habit of mine…at least I hope so.  Lately I have also observed, she was a bit introvert kind of person same like me. After classes she vanished and didn’t used to hang around much with anyone. We never exchanged any words for weeks, till this special moment happened one day.

First day of the week, after our last period at 4 pm , we were coming out of the building and suddenly it started raining heavily, I took my umbrella out from my bag and headed towards the gate, but to my surprise i saw her standing near the same staircase where I had seen her for the first time.  She was looking outside desperately as if her eyes were pleading for the rain to stop but whether it was her bad luck or good luck for me, rain god was in no mood to