Lin McLean by Owen Wister (howl and other poems .TXT) 📕

miles. The plain was blanketed in a tawny eclipse. Each minute the near buildings became invisible in a turbulent herd of clouds. Above this travelling blur of the soil the top of the water-tank alone rose bulging into the clear sun. The sand spirals would lick like flames along the bulk of the lofty tub, and soar skyward. It was not shipping season. The freight-cars stood idle in a long line. No cattle huddled in the corrals. No strangers moved in town. No cow-ponies dozed in front of the saloon. Their riders were distant in ranch and camp. Human noise was extinct in Separ. Beneath the thunder of the sultry blasts the place lay dead in its flapping shroud of dust. “Why won’t you tell me?” droned Billy. For some time he had been returning, like a mosquito brushed away.

“That’s ten times,” said Jessamine, promptly.

“Oh, goodness! Pretty soon I’ll not be glad I came. I’m about twiced as less glad now.”

“Well,” said Jessamine, “there’s a man coming to-day to mend the government telegraph-line between Drybone and McKinney. Maybe he would take you back as far as Box Elder, if you want to go very much. Shall I ask him?”

Billy was disappointed at this cordial seconding of his mood. He did not make a direct rejoinder. “I guess I’ll go outside now,” said he, with a threat in his tone.

She continued mending his stockings. Finished ones lay rolled at one side of her chair, and upon the other were more waiting her attention.

“And I’m going to turn back hand-springs on top of all the freight-cars,” he stated, more loudly.

She indulged again in merriment, laughing sweetly at him, and without restraint.

“And I’m sick of what you all keep a-saying to me!” he shouted. “Just as if I was a baby.”

“Why, Billy, who ever said you were a baby?”

“All of you do. Honey, and Lin, and you, now, and everybody. What makes you say ‘that’s nine times, Billy; oh, Billy, that’s ten times,’ if you don’t mean I’m a baby? And you laugh me off, just like they do, and just like I was a regular baby. You won’t tell me—”

“Billy, listen. Did nobody ever ask you something you did not want to tell them?”

“That’s not a bit the same, because—because—because I treat ‘em square and because it’s not their business. But every time I ask anybody ‘most anything, they say I’m not old enough to understand; and I’ll be ten soon. And it is my business when it’s about the kind of a mother I’m agoing to have. Suppose I quit acting square, an’ told ‘em, when they bothered me, they weren’t young enough to understand! Wish I had. Guess I will, too, and watch ‘em step around.” For a moment his mind dwelt upon this, and he whistled a revengeful strain.

“Goodness, Billy!” said Jessamine, at the sight of the next stocking. “The whole heel is scorched off.”

He eyed the ruin with indifference. “Ah, that was last month when I and Lin shot the bear in the swamp willows. He made me dry off my legs. Chuck it away.”

“And spoil the pair? No, indeed!”

“Mother always chucked ‘em, an’ father’d buy new ones till I skipped from home. Lin kind o’ mends ‘em.”

“Does he?” said Jessamine, softly. And she looked at the photograph.

“Yes. What made you write him for to let me come and bring my stockin’s and things?”

“Don’t you see, Billy, there is so little work at this station that I’d be looking out of the window all day just the pitiful way you do?”

“Oh!” Billy pondered. “And so I said to Lin,” he continued, “why didn’t he send down his own clothes, too, an’ let you fix ‘em all. And Honey Wiggin laughed right in his coffee-cup so it all sploshed out. And the cook he asked me if mother used to mend Lin’s clothes. But I guess she chucked ‘em like she always did father’s and mine. I was with father, you know, when mother was married to Lin that time.” He paused again, while his thoughts and fears struggled. “But Lin says I needn’t ever go back,” he went on, reasoning and confiding to her. “Lin don’t like mother any more, I guess.” His pondering grew still deeper, and he looked at Jessamine for some while. Then his face wakened with a new theory. “Don’t Lin like you any more?” he inquired.

“Oh,” cried Jessamine, crimsoning, “yes! Why, he sent you to me!”

“Well, he got hot in camp when I said that about sending his clothes to you. He quit supper pretty soon, and went away off a walking. And that’s another time they said I was too young. But Lin don’t come to see you any more.”

“Why, I hope he loves me,” murmured Jessamine. “Always.”

“Well, I hope so too,” said Billy, earnestly. “For I like you. When I seen him show you our cabin on Box Elder, and the room he had fixed for you, I was glad you were coming to be my mother. Mother used to be awful. I wouldn’t ‘a’ minded her licking me if she’d done other things. Ah, pshaw! I wasn’t going to stand that.” Billy now came close to Jessamine. “I do wish you would come and live with me and Lin,” said he. “Lin’s awful nice.”

“Don’t I know it?” said Jessamine, tenderly.

“Cause I heard you say you were going to marry him,” went on Billy. “And I seen him kiss you and you let him that time we went away when you found out about mother. And you’re not mad, and he’s not, and nothing happens at all, all the same! Won’t you tell me, please?”

Jessamine’s eyes were glistening, and she took him in her lap. She was not going to tell him that he was too young this time. But whatever things she had shaped to say to the boy were never said.

Through the noise of the gale came the steadier sound of the train, and the girl rose quickly to preside over her ticket-office and duties behind the railing in the front room of the station. The boy ran to the window to watch the great event of Separ’s day. The locomotive loomed out from the yellow clots of drift, paused at the water-tank, and then with steam and humming came slowly on by the platform. Slowly its long dust-choked train emerged trundling behind it, and ponderously halted. There was no one to go. No one came to buy a ticket of Jessamine. The conductor looked in on business, but she had no telegraphic orders for him. The express agent jumped off and looked in for pleasure. He received his daily smile and nod of friendly discouragement. Then the light bundle of mail was flung inside the door. Separ had no mail to go out. As she was picking up the letters young Billy passed her like a shadow, and fled out. Two passengers had descended from the train, a man and a large woman. His clothes were loose and careless upon him. He held valises, and stood uncertainly looking about him in the storm. Her firm, heavy body was closely dressed. In her hat was a large, handsome feather. Along between the several cars brakemen leaned out, watched her, and grinned to each other. But her big, hard-shining blue eyes were fixed curiously upon the station where Jessamine was.

“It’s all night we may be here, is it?” she said to the man, harshly.

“How am I to help that?” he retorted.

“I’ll help it. If this hotel’s the sty it used to be, I’ll walk to Tommy’s. I’ve not saw him since I left Bear Creek.”

She stalked into the hotel, while the man went slowly to the station. He entered, and found Jessamine behind her railing, sorting the slim mail.

“Good-evening,” he said. “Excuse me. There was to be a wagon sent here.”

“For the telegraph-mender? Yes, sir. It came Tuesday. You’re to find the pole-wagon at Drybone.”

This news was good, and all that he wished to know. He could drive out and escape a night at the Hotel Brunswick. But he lingered, because Jessamine spoke so pleasantly to him. He had heard of her also.

“Governor Barker has not been around here?” he said.

“Not yet, sir. We understand he is expected through on a hunting-trip.”

“I suppose there is room for two and a trunk on that wagon?”

“I reckon so, sir.” Jessamine glanced at the man, and he took himself out. Most men took themselves out if Jessamine so willed; and it was mostly achieved thus, in amity.

On the platform the man found his wife again.

“Then I needn’t to walk to Tommy’s,” she said. “And we’ll eat as we travel. But you’ll wait till I’m through with her.” She made a gesture toward the station.

“Why—why—what do you want with her. Don’t you know who she is?”

“It was me told you who she was, James Lusk. You’ll wait till I’ve been and asked her after Lin McLean’s health, and till I’ve saw how the likes of her talks to the likes of me.”

He made a feeble protest that this would do no one any good.

“Sew yourself up, James Lusk. If it has been your idea I come with yus clear from Laramie to watch yus plant telegraph-poles in the sagebrush, why you’re off. I ain’t heard much ‘o Lin since the day he learned it was you and not him that was my husband. And I’ve come back in this country to have a look at my old friends—and” (she laughed loudly and nodded at the station) “my old friends’ new friends!”

Thus ordered, the husband wandered away to find his wagon and the horse.

Jessamine, in the office, had finished her station duties and returned to her needle. She sat contemplating the scorched sock of Billy’s, and heard a heavy step at the threshold. She turned, and there was the large woman with the feather quietly surveying her. The words which the stranger spoke then were usual enough for a beginning. But there was something of threat in the strong animal countenance, something of laughter ready to break out. Much beauty of its kind had evidently been in the face, and now, as substitute for what was gone, was the brag look of assertion that it was still all there. Many stranded travellers knocked at Jessamine’s door, and now, as always, she offered the hospitalities of her neat abode, the only room in Separ fit for a woman. As she spoke, and the guest surveyed and listened, the door blew shut with a crash.

Outside, in a shed, Billy had placed the wagon between himself and his father.

“How you have grown!” the man was saying; and he smiled. “Come, shake hands. I did not think to see you here.”

“Dare you to touch me!” Billy screamed. “No, I’ll never come with you. Lin says I needn’t to.”

The man passed his hand across his forehead, and leaned against the wheel. “Lord, Lord!” he muttered.

His son warily slid out of the shed and left him leaning there.